No news weekend

We went to mass today. The homily was mostly about remembering that God is Lord and that we need to let him do his job and quit freaking out about things. As usual, Fr. Kevin speaks directly to us through the sermon as though it was meant just for us. Although this is not the easiest message for me to follow through on, I have been working on this very thing this past week. When life is the hardest is when it's the most difficult to remember that God takes care of things and all of our stressing out and trying to control things won't help at all. And it won't work anyway. He's still God. We're still idiot humans. Better to let him be in charge.
Even before the homily I was feeling much more peaceful today at church than I have yet since Eliana got sick. I have been so anxious, with a constant litany of 'what are we going to do? what are we going to do?' going through my brain for a week. At mass today I wasn't thinking that, and I felt like God was telling me to relax, that things would work out OK.
Not that I won't still worry, pray like crazy and probably cry everyday until Eliana comes home...
Matt's having a harder time today. I think it's the anticipation of the week starting again and the fight to learn some information. It's as though he and I take turns feeling confident/good versus crummy/bummed out. Thank goodness. We couldn't stand ourselves if we were both freaking out all the time. I guess that's what it means to be married, right?
Keep up all the beautiful prayers everyone has been offering us.
Add a special prayer for our friends Suzy, Tim and Camille, too.